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31.7.10; Saturday, July 31, 2010

2 choices.
Either i talk to you nicely and settle it in a amicable manner and keep the real hatred and hurt within and eventually , go crazy. OR,,, i scream and shout, take my sweet sweet revenge and the only thing i lose is what i had loss in the beginning, YOU.

i have picked my choice (:

19.7.10; Monday, July 19, 2010

MWAHAHAHAHHASa...
the mighty, fun-loving,cheerful and crazy but lovable ELAINE FOO is back (:
after venting my frustration on 3 of my good friends,CHLOE,SISTER & DOMI-PIG! i feel better and suddenly,in the morning i felt like laughing at myself! (:
thanks CHLOE for the bread and stupid jokes, and we watch R21 movie together! HAHAHAHAHAS. then, to SISTER! accompany me for lunch and shopping (:
and lastly, DOMI-PIG~ for keeping his promise and smsing me *constantly* (:
thanks to friends who voiced their concern on FB . i really appreciate you guys.! ;D

besides, i will find someone better .. like.... HEHEHEHEHEHE~~~~

kangsheng, you will still and always be my good friend! and, you will always be in our NTUC clique of ME,SISTER,WANXIN and ALIEN! (:

* actually, its a funnnnny story. the spoon sorta hit my neck and flip to the ground! *. there you go ;p

*i really dont know what can make her give this face.* (:

18.7.10; Sunday, July 18, 2010

How can you just throw me away with simple 'under pressure'..
since you know that you have pressures within the 4th and 5th month in every relationship, shouldnt we be working it out? or will you continue to throw everyone out everytime this period arrive?

thanks for throwing me out like thrash..
leaving me all alone.
thanks for making me cry like i never had..
thanks for making me hurt so terribly that i feel like im going to burst.
thanks for making me see who you really were..

and to think that you made so much nonsensical futuristic dreams and plans with me.
why would you even do that. when you know you are just going to 'crumble to pressure' eventually.
does it make you happy to know someone is hurting because of you?
does it make you happy to know you made someone cant stop unloving you?
does it make you feel like you just ' bag another prize'? and got away?

guys are jerks,
all guys are.. and just when i thought you were different,
you had to go and prove me wrong..

i hate you.
i hate how you can make me lose sleep knowing you are sleeping well.
i hate how you can make me miss work knowing you will still go.
i hate how you can make me love you without stopping knowing you wont.
i hate how you hurt me. knowing you dont feel hurt at all..

i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you

i hate how i cannot forget you no matter how i try and that,
i still love you..

Breaking up is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream

Breaking up. something so familiar yet distant. Just when i thought i had everything. a great job, lovely family, wonderful friends and, the perfect boyfriend.Then i have to wake up and face the fact that he's gone. And to think that i almost believe in your 'happily ever after'..
is surprising how a single message can make a person's world fall apart. and to think that this is the 2nd time in a year. how can a person whom you once love so dear hurt you so badly? so because of your 'impulsiveness' 5 months ago, you have the right to hurt me? i have to take the hurt, the blame and me left alone like i did before? to feel scared and lonely and used. this isnt fair.

He taught me how to love, but not how to stop

he taught me to love. and make me fal so hard. yet he can just throw them all away.
what about me? just let myself be thrown?
i tried..
i folded stars, through the night and even to the extent that i feel frustrated beause i just cant do it.
i baked a cake and even though you did not get to eat it, i felt happy the moment i finished and that you promised to bake another one with me.
i learned to be selfless and to love you with my heart.
i took al your promises real and to heart and i try my best to never break one i made.
but, maybe you shoud never made promises..
you should never made me fall in love with you even more.
you should not say that you love me everyday.
you should not make me feel like the luckiest girl.
you should not promise me forever.
you should not promise you will bake a cake with me.
or catch me a bear.
or to go travelling.
or even to buy a house
and live happily ever after.
because it all wont come true.
and it only make me hurt more when i remember them. when i remember you.

I hate you and everything we once were

truth be told, i hate you.
i hate you so bad..
i hate you for making me cry
for making me hurt.
for making my friends worry.
for making me feel stupid when all along i was thinking how to make it up to you,
you were thinking of breaking up..
for making empty and useless promises.
for breaking up with me.
for making me love you.

i hate myself..
for loving you.
for not being able to let go.
for pretending that im okay with us just being friends.
for nt trying harder.
for making you break up with me.

I miss you more than you'll ever know

i miss you.
i miss you so much.
so badly..
when i did not see you on saturday , did you know i was shattered.
i was sad when you did not text me.
and when you finally did,
you made me hurt like i never hurt before.
and i have to lie.
to friends that im okay.
to you that im fine after a while.
but it never will be. it never will.
i miss all the stupid things.
the morning text and the night ones.
the one who always make me smile to sleep and wake with a smile.
the ones which always make my day..
the way you smile and your little eyes.
your eyebrows, your nose, your mouth.
the way you talk,laugh, snore..
the way you cared,asked,text and loved.
they are all gone..
and im gone. from your heart...