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27.11.09; Friday, November 27, 2009

271109-FRIDAY.

DADEE is gonna be back tonight! and will arrive promptly at midnight i guess..

working MP tomorrow so i can no need so early sleep. hahas.~! ;D

work was fun today and, made new friends recently in NTUC. the new trainees. lols. more guys then girls though for this year's batch. kinda funny group so should be okay la..

love the after work walked today with ANN. was fun and i always dont have to worry bout anything when im with him. ;)

nothing much after this though. lols. be back tomorrow i guess? lols.
dont pelt tomatoes at me!!

23.11.09; Monday, November 23, 2009

231109-MONDAY./

yay! today went shopping with MAMEE,CHERYL & JORDAN foos!
lunched at cafe cartel with lots of laughs and headed to shopping.
went by the doll catching machine and we spent about 30bucks on them.
caught tortoise and spongebob! haha.
headed to CCK pasar malam for a walk and bus-ed home.
was around 6plus and spent the time watching drama on mio tv. damn funny!
headed for a walk with DA YI & UNCLE before heading to QIQI house .
had dinner there and watched AUNTY LUCY movie. HAHAHAHHAS. love it!

yawns~ time for bed and going to continue k-ing drama tomorrow after work!
ps, didnt know thta DADEE had already gone to phillipines. lols. WHAT AM I DOING??!?!?! lols. ;D
xoxo

21.11.09; Saturday, November 21, 2009

211109-SATURDAY.

i cant sleep.
i lay wide awake on my bed every night for 3 nights continuously.
theres no reason, i just cant get into sleeping mode!!

i feel so so so so tired but i just lay wide awake on the bed!
FRUSTRATING~!! please, give me some sleeping pills!!!!
after that day when im drenched, i cant seem to sleep well at night..
;(

17.11.09; Tuesday, November 17, 2009

171109-TUESDAY.

work was FUNNNNN. cause got shuai ge!!! hahas.
xiao didi lai de. but still cute ma! ;D
and how dare WANXIN,GOH LEECHENG aunty,AH MAYLIM aunty and LIHWA aunty say me..
i waas SHOOOOOT till i got nothing to say today in cashier room.
and laughter surrounds the small but cosy cashier room..

xiao di came and visit me today .
thanks to him i got water and sweets!
but i feel bad cause he always got tangle with me. lols.
AND DONT EVER TRY TO MAKE ME SQUIRM AGAIN!!

cant wait till the weekends for me to work with ZHIANN, JINGWEN and WANXIN, SANDY and VINCENT again! hahas. loving weekends

16.11.09; Monday, November 16, 2009

161109-MONDAY.

and, i slack today off.
however, im so upset and disappointed.
HOW CAN THEY CHEAT ME?!?!?!?!
HBP dvd is not out yet~!!!! WAAAAAA.... cheaters.. ;(
and the ystate so big big big. 161109... HMPH!!

anyways, on to other stuff,
gonna cook spaghetti for my xiao di and xiao mei. lols
donno will be up to the previous standard a not.
i kinda miss my F&N lessons..
awwww.....

15.11.09; Sunday, November 15, 2009

Someone notices you.
Someone somewhere notices you the second you walk into a room.
Find them.
Because they’re waiting for you.
Waiting for you to turn your head, say hello,
and make their day the way you’ve made every single one of theirs.
Find them.

14.11.09; Saturday, November 14, 2009

thanks to SANDY and VINCENT for tonight. thankyou.

just one more day..
when i let go,
everything will be back to normal...

just one more..
one more..

13.11.09; Friday, November 13, 2009

and. this is it..
everythings over. and everytime this happens, i tell myself.
you're strong. theres nothing to cry about.
nothing can ever make you tihs sad.
and still, i break down.

so what if i already knew the answer long ago?
so what if i already knew it would not happen?
so what if i already knew theres not a chance?
it doesnt lessen the hurt.
in fact, it hurts the same.

i'll pick myself up and move along.
i wont wait.
i wont stay.
i wont let myself be trap in this situation.
and thinking back.
i always tell myself that and yet, i fall right into it again.

how can i keep doing this?
im tired. i really am..
maybe, its really better to be loved then to love....

12.11.09; Thursday, November 12, 2009

IM SO GONNA KILL JONATHAN KWOK WAI KIT~!!!!!!!!!!!!

so what if its cute? hahas. so not like me lor...

DAY6: and, it starts..

one more day.
just one more..
and if i can survive through it,
maybe i can smile and be comfortable around you once again.
and this time round.
just friends.. nothing else.

i wont harbour any thoughts on this anymore after one more day..

121109-THURSDAY.
just another day~ worked and was tired.
basically, its just a routine for me today. not much strange or unexpected stuff happen
but laughter as usual~

11.11.09; Wednesday, November 11, 2009

DAY5: and, i still think of you.

my favorite date.. 1111.. and. its still the same.
im afraid that it might fade away.
i want the unconfortable feeling to fade.
i want the hurt to fade.
i want the animosity to fade.
but....

if it fades and i dont feel anymore,
it means i have really let you go.
and, i still dont want to..
or do i ?

and on day7, everything may just fade away...

111109-WEDNESDAY.

my favorite date! worked CI and at counter 6.

have lots of auntys to play with me. i keep bullying christine aunty and she said

" elaine's biggest enjoyment is to bully NTUC aunty". lols.. TRUE TRUE! ;D

cooked dinner for family and not bad la. but i forgotten to wash the fish! yucks. hahas. and i forgotten to add salt into the soup and fish as well.. lols... nevermind. stiu got next time uhs~ and i decided to show you guys the mickey FOX sweater! love it!

->COD FISH.

->FOX mickey sweater!!

-.CHRISTINE aunty!

-> LAODA's drawing of me.. lols

ps, mine drawing of CHRISTINE aunty is more realistic! hahahs.

10.11.09; Tuesday, November 10, 2009

DAY4: and, it feels like this..

it comes and goes.
it just does.. and yet, we're still at it..
i still miss everything.. and i still miss you.
maybe, letting go is really the right thing to do.
maybe, its the best thing to do now.
maybe, iys the only thing to be done. .

are we going to remain like this?

101109-TUESDAY.
worked and headed home. nothing much.
thanks to AILEH aunty for the carrot cake and porridge !
THANKYOU!!! ;D

9.11.09; Monday, November 09, 2009

DAY3: and it rained and rained.

we;ve been at this for 3 days. and no one is giving in..
we've stop talking,smsing in fact, all contact since day 1.
and i truly thought you would be gentleman enough to stop this.
but you didnt. and i guess, you wont as well..

it might be me but did i not try to speak to you as well?
and what did i get?
since you want it this way. then fine..
in case you havent notice, im a girl and i need to be cajole as well.
and not always to be the one to end the fight

and now did i realise how easily i can be replaced.
maybe, i shouldnt have fall in the first place at all..
and then. it might not hurt so bad..

if this is how its gonna end,i'll comply..
if this is how it hurts, then it couldnt get any worse.
and if we did get back, it wouldnt be the same.
it just wont.. .. ...

and i wont let you know how much i miss you. cause im strong on the outside and will always be.

091109-MONDAY.
headed to JP with my dear today. had a funnn day but neverthless, i was not able to get him out of my mind.. shopped and bought my FOX mickey sweater! 49dollars but well, is NICEE and comfy. just nice for me. ;D

had delifrance lunch and chatted with dear. so long din see her. train-ed home and rest and we went to NTUC to get fuji apple drink. saw so many auntys and we chatted and laughed as usual. bought hair treatment shampoo and conditioner. lols. cant wait for HBP dvd to be out!

its fun but still..

7.11.09; Saturday, November 07, 2009

i told myself to not be upset. cause i can never ever show it.
im angry at why i cant let go. and not why you did..
perhaps, we're already through with making memories and thats all we are left with..

ignorance is bliss.. it really is..
being delusional really helps.. it helps alot.
and although things might get better, im never the same again.

only pathetic people falls in love with their best friend. so why am i always the pathetic one. .
*22 steps**

thanks for the memories.. thanks so much uhs.

071109-SATURDAY.

counter2. lunched at 2pm. nothing much to mention at work. headed home and rest before going out with MAMEE,CHERYL & JORDAN . lols. stupid sia the trip. all 3 of us have unlimitied smses so we keep msging each other although we only opposite to one another. lols.

~ and i thought we were suppose to let the guys be the gentlemen ones.

~ we were through making memories and now, we're left with only them.

~ things will never be the same. in the inside, i will never be the same. .

6.11.09; Friday, November 06, 2009

071109-SATURDAY.

JONATHAN KWOK WAI KIT never fails to make me laugh out loud when i chat with him. STUPID GUY!!!! hahahas. i will miss you la~

thankyou uhs~! =D

ps, i love MATT WHITE's -BEST DAYS-. ;D

061109-FRIDAY.
seriously, i always have the tendency to blog a few hours after the actual day. lols. so i always have to *CHEAT* and put the date as the day before.. DONT SO JI JIAO ok !

i did not realise that i slept tiu 230pm today!!! it was till i heard CHERYL returning from home did i realise it. lols. had maggie noodles with my favorite cheese tofu and enoki mushroom. seriously. i am falling head over heels with them!!!! LOVED IT! headed to work and was next to HASLINA aunty today. thanks to AILEH aunty for getting me a honeydew ice blend today. was the first time i had it and it is AWESOOME~ thankyouthankyou!

am HEARTBROKEN today cause JOEY LAI still call me 'EH KIA'*short kid in hokkien*. i grow-ed leyyyy.. dont like that la.. hahas. walked to LRT station with YONGDA,SIWEI and a unknown guy. i dont know his name. hahas. sorry bout that.

well. nothing else to update. going shopping with MAMEE and siblings tomorrow after work.
loves!
*my english is NOT deteriorating! and i shall prevent it from doing so as well.! *

why am i turning when i should be moving forth?

5.11.09; Thursday, November 05, 2009

051109-THURSDAY.

RAINY DAY~ great day for sleeping in! =D headed to BPJ at 2pm for lunch with LEECHENG aunty and that BLUR aunty forgotten. cause she thought i might not come cause its raining. lols.
bought and dyed my hair color today. brownish red.. not bad, ;D bought moisturizer for hair as well and might be going to get my FOX mickey mouse sweater~

worked LT and was next to AILEH aunty. had fun today.
cant wait to go GENTING and KOREA for shopping spreee~~~~ WOOTS! shop till i drop. and, i GRACIOUSLY thank my dear ORGAN bang for making me start loving shopping. and, thats like the only thing i wanna do whenever i feel free.!!!!
waiting for lunch date with JOOJOO on 9th as well. see you girl!
and good luck to RP fellow friends for UT and good luck to friends who retook O's this year.

I WANT SOCIAL WORK COURSE IN NYP~! OR NURSING AS WELL!

hugs and kisses peoples. ;D

4.11.09; Wednesday, November 04, 2009

041109-WEDNESDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my DEAAAAARRRRR friend, KAITING NG~!

ohmygosh! i miss miss miss miss miss miss miss you sooo much! and i saw 2 funny picture of us today. hahas! =D

*hahas. see? i posted my own DIULIAN pictures for you!see how much i LOVE you uhs!* ;D

okay, today i worked and told NTUC auntys i withdrawing from RP. and of course, they were shocked but they supported my choice as well. =D seriously love these whole bunch of lovely auntys~ thanks for everything! ;D

** recap on yesterday. totally forgotten to update!* *

went to meet ZHIANN and we headed to CWP for lunch. he's chicken chop had a funny taste while my lemon fish taste AWESOOOME~. went to RP for withdrawing matters and train-ed home. was raning and that BEN DAN got drenched not from the rain but from his own sweat.. lols. and, he cant differentiate a hospital from a polyclinic.. he uhs~~ and he has been coughing for around 2 weeks and not getting better... BEN DAN lor~

headed to DA YI's house for dinnering. she invited me there cause she cooking and i gladly accepted of course! missed them so much since i havent been able to go to my AH MA's house on sundays regularly. been a month plus already.

dinnered with DA YI,UNCLE and JJ. had funny conversations and great food~ walked home after that with DA YI and UNCLE. so much fun ~ ohya, UNCLE took a picture of me wearing JH's sunglasses.

reached home, showered and slacked with lappy for the rest of the night. chatted to CHANTELL da jie about her wedding, my withdrawing and random stuff. cant wait for GENTING trip and KOREA trip is seemingly back on! WOOTS! =D

* serious me.. ?!*

hugs and kisses~

3.11.09; Tuesday, November 03, 2009

031109-TUESDAY.

i dont know when is this gonna end.

i feel like im sailing in a vast dark and black sea.. i cant seem to focus on where i am going and where to stop.. i dont like this feeling growing inside of me..

i dislike it when he leaves me alone.

i dislike it when he sticks to me.

i dislike it when he ignores me.

i dislike it when he sticks to me.

i dislike it when he comes near me.

i dislike me... liking him.. UGH!!!!!!!!!

*lighter note, baby here i come! no more endless slacking!*

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2.11.09; Monday, November 02, 2009

021109-MONDAY

FREAKKKKIING!!! i wanted nursing and now, i found the course that i know i will TRULLLLY love it with my heart and soul *cliche ehs*..

and the course that gets my heart desire is... SOCIAL WORK! wtf!!!! i LOVE it this is also related to my CCA.. and what i alwasy inspire to be. a social worker. furthermore, i cam also further my studies in thisfeild in NUS and other universities both local and overseas..

consulted aunt and if i cant get in to SOCIAL WORK or NURSING, i can still go to PRIVATE school. as long as it gets me out of you-know-where. ;D
lovelovelove! =D

--UPDATES~!!
DADEE SAYS YES! he says * up to you. as long as you like it. whatever decision you make, i support you.* THANKYOU my dearest DADEE AND MAMEE~~~ i promise i will study damn hard and into UNI . cause i want to study the course i love and like!

and, thankyou DADEE for searching so hard for ASHLEY TISDALE's cd for me when you were at UK. i know you pretend to be nonchalant but aunty said you searched high and low.. THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU.. even though i did something sooo wrong last time but i have changed and wil lcontinue to change for the better.

THANKYOU MAMEE for alwasystaying by my side and guiding me towards the right way. i LOVE you guys! and my siblings as well. thanks everyone for the support and i will make sure i get in and study damn damn damn hard. ! =D

1.11.09; Sunday, November 01, 2009

011109-SUNDAY.

sisterJINGWEN says that today is a nice date. cause she love this date. i however thinks that 111 sounds and look nicer. DEFINITELY. =D

carrying on, worked next to ANN today. and i was feeling HORRIBLE cause i was drenched yesterday on the way home from head to toe and was feeling a bit sick this morning again. However, ANN never fail to cheer me up even though i keep ignoring him. hahas =D waited for him and went home after that.

Din bring keys and D.I.E hahas. luckily i found them. in my jacket de pocket =.=
had dinner at 9 cause MAMEE came home late from grandma's house. i MISSED MY RELATIVES!!! ='(
date for GENTING trip has been confirmed. 18th to 21st. and, going TAIWAN in JAN! no more KOREA trip though., cause QIQI's mum is afraaaid of winter. lols. ;p

i LOVE my work life, personal life and now, just a teeny bit of change in my SCHOOL life and everything would be perfect. =D

* i was holding on long enough to know..i should be letting go.*