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30.5.09; Saturday, May 30, 2009

310509-SUNDAY (wee hours)

letter of the day, FARK!! i feel so fark up .. worked MY and the day pass reeeall slow.. im damn tired.. and, i just cant control myself today. i keep muttering " WTF" to myself..maybe the tiredness is overcoming me..

i'm starting to feel something i shoud NOT feel.. never at all... i can only say, WHAT THE FISH... lets just hope i'll get over this feeling soon!!!! to my loves, i'm still me. the same cheerful,sotong and funny me.. i just need a few more days. just a few more... trust me, i wont stay like this for the rest of my life.. (:

working BA and my XIAODI will be beside me. hahas. he REALLY is a great XIAODI.. thanks for everything. LOVEYOU! (u know what i mean la.) winkwink** HAHAHAS.

i'll make myself strong and i'll stay that way...

the walls are getting higher.... and im trapped..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELYSSA!! aka, hockey/floorball player! (:

29.5.09; Friday, May 29, 2009

300509-SATURDAY(early hours)..

to let go... does not mean that i stop caring..it means i cant do it for someone else..

to let go...is not to cut myself off..but to realize i cant control another..

to let go...is to admit im powerless..which means the outcome is not in my hands..

to let go...is not to try and blame or change another..is to make the most of myself..

to let go...is not to be protective..its to permit another to face reality..

to let go...is not to deny..but to accept..

to let go...is not to adjust everything to my desires..but to take each day as it comes and

cherish it..

to let go...is not to regret the past..but to grow and live for the future..

to let go...is to fear less and love more..

Am i ready? i dont know... i really dont..

im waiting.. waiting for the day i break free.. from myself..

*credits pic: google.com ,, *credit notes : {letting go takes love}

28.5.09; Thursday, May 28, 2009

290509-FRIDAY

Aloha peepos! LOLS. its exactly 153AM now. and yes, i cant sleep!!! HUDA asked me why im so high and lets just say, i've got 5 main reasons. (:

Firstly, Its gonna be HOLIDAYS!! starting 290509,5pm. (: cant wait for my ORGAN bang mini gathering and of course re-energize myself. (:

Secondly, Ashley Tisdale's {Guilty Pleasure} will STILL be available for sale in singapore on JUNE 16TH!!! O.M.G. cause she mentioned in KISS concert its in august.. scare me. ~.~

Thirdly, there's new outtakes of Ashley Tisdale's {Guilty Pleasure} pictures!

Fourth, Im listening to {Its Alright Its Okay and Guilty Pleasure} now!!!

LASTLY, Ashley Tisdale MIGHT come to Asia!!!!!(what i heard) OH.MY.GOD!!!!! please come to singapore!!!! (fingers crossed) . :D

ps, had cognitive module today and the title, ({He Said She Said} They Said)( LOLS! make me happy. hahas. well, school was overall fun except when im being appointed to answer the faci's question which ,btw, i have NO IDEA . hahas, thanks to teammates of the day , TK;KJ;ELYSSA and SITI. for helping! Took communicative UT today and well, lets just say i have no comment.

i guess im starting to get used to doing ppt everyday and solving new questions. Used to eating sandwiches and cheese balls and sipping cookie and creams milkshake. but, i still HATE doing math PBLs. damn tough! :X im still getting scare in classes. .__.

i shall be spending time with my dearest during my hols. ILY!! :D

letting go? is not something to be sad of.. (:

cause i have you...guys.. (: LOVEYOU.

--Picture credits to "bebo.com//zashley fans"//Ashley Tisdale--

26.5.09; Tuesday, May 26, 2009

260509- TUESDAY

hi peepos! had Maths module and math UT today, yes, UGHHH!! #@!(*&#( i dont know why but i simply cannot process math. so to those who know me well, double UGHHH for me.. ): manage to get through it in the end but cause im blogging before UT startsm i cant say a thing bout the question but trust me, i WONT be able to pass. hahas.

peeps and i watched "Nightmare on Elm Street" in class today. damn bloody and lots of gore scenes! OMG!! was freaked out by the attacks and the killing parts. >.<>>.<<

missing my lovely ORGAN BANG as usual. like, HOTDOG,JOOJOO,MAMA,MRS SHOW,BRENDA AND AH WEI.. (:

missing my CHIAMMY (: missing my LOST SHUTING,JINGWEN and LYDIA.

awwww.. i missed our days in hillgrove,4E5.. im damn tired and lets just say, HOLIDAYING in exactly 3days time!! yoohoo~ :D

im healing myself in the process...

25.5.09; Monday, May 25, 2009

250509-Monday

I know the picture maybe a bit comical but, i really want to thank my besties for these few days. I LOVE YOU GUYS soooo soooo much.. and, the first person to have "healed" me is my dearest and oldest, JOREAL SEAH JIE SI aka, HOTDOG. ILY so much!! thankyou for everything you said and done for me.. really.. (: using ur catchphrase, AI SI NI LER!!!

TAN XUE JIA..although you always "ignore" lots of things but, i really love the fact that you still try to make me laugh when im down. i LOVE you tooo!! and, i agree when you say that you have a very "hard" mouth. hahas, (:

SANDY da jiejie.. thankyous! you are AWESUM! (: and, i really LOVE you! hahas. how can "huai yi" me? i will never forget the times when you accompany me through the "scary" orientation,bully me, stood up for me and, being there for me.. quoting what you said, " love you many many!" hahhas. :D

OH WANXIN. i enjoy the fact that i could always count on you to accompany me for food and fun! and the trips we have together! hahas. FUN LA! (: and the stories you told me bout. (: i LOVE you too! and i know you wont be angry with me when i say you. *hint CK* lols. (:

The rest who helped me too along the way. just by being there is enough. (: and of course stranger, who i still do not know who you are.. thankyou. soo much.. (:

Recently, had UTs yet again. took enterprise UT and, i guess i may manage to pass.. im gonna have my 2 weeks holiday soon and im going to take this chance to unwind! cant wait for girlfriends meet up during my holiday period..(: ohya, knew 2 more great friends . XIUYUN and ELYSSA.. ones a very "dao"looking girl and ones a hockey player!! (no worries, they are funny and lovable as well.) :D

maybe,you are right. we shouldnt have asked you out that day.
im NOT and NEVER had blame you, cause i know there are some faults that i had also made.
im placing the final fullstop here.. and im awaiting the day.
the day where i can find myself saying "hi" to you once more...

ps: i cut my hair and, my cousins say i look like a gong dai...^&@^!#@(

22.5.09; Friday, May 22, 2009

220509-FRIDAY

I dont know what to say or do anymore.

I thought i could face you but apparently i cant.

I'm really sorry. I just need some time.

And maybe you are right, forgetting you maybe the best thing to do now.

Its just so different this time round. There's too many problems.

Problems i myself cant deal with and i somehow expect you to deal with them.

I can feel myself falling apart all over again..

I just cant do it anymore...

20.5.09; Wednesday, May 20, 2009

200509-WEDNESDAY

OMG! Finally had time to listen to Ashley Tisdale performing at the KISS concert which was held on 17th May 2009,Sunday. (Boston,MA timing). (:

Performed "Masquerade","Hot Mess","Hair" and of course, "Its Alright Its Okay" . and, she sounds AHMAZING when she sings live!! OMGOMGOMG! cant wait for {Guilty Pleasure}! (:

17.5.09; Sunday, May 17, 2009

180509-MONDAY

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TAN JUNJIE!
celebrated JJ tan's birthday early on SATURDAY, 160509. Headed to his house at about 3plus to fetch JUNHAO and his girlfriend,CHANTELL (aka,da jie).XP. went to buy drinks and party bags plus the kiddy snacks to be place into the party bags. (MY responsibility! (: )

reached Arena Country club at around 4. We headed straight for the ballroom and my first reaction was "walao! like wedding like that.' hahas.(u will see from the pictures later on.) Started to pack the party bag with help from Da Jie, QQI,CHERYL and JORDAN. And thanks to photographer,JUNHAO. hahas. we "STOLE" most of the snacks and munch on it.
After done, went to the poolside. the rest of the family were alredy there . the young ones were swiming and the OLD ( ;P) ones were chatting by the side. Aafter a short chat, went to the bowling alley for a game. MAMEE, AUNTY LILY,AUNTY MONA LISA and me played. while the audience are JUNHAO,Da Jie,Ah Ma,QIQI and Cheryl.

Party starts at 6plus and we had buffet and of course, karaoke. (: but sadly,more new chinese songs then english songs. but,its Alright,Its Okay! (: ps, the shir i gave JJ is NOT "3 for $10" hahas. (:

--> i so freaking LOVE this.

lemon singing! ^.0

ps, i am so pissed off by what pepo says about ashley tisdale!!!! ): hahas. (:

*theres a freaking funny guy in class when we presenting. hahas.! XD*

15.5.09; Friday, May 15, 2009

150509-FRIDAY

OMG! i freaking missed my organ bang and now, my wish came true! (sorta).lols. went out with my dear JOOJOO and HOTDOG. (: Loved the lunch date although it was a shortt one with HOTDOG.due to her having a appointment with her stylist.

Bought a tee for JJ. (my cousin). debated with JOOJOO and bought it. YOU BETTER WEAR IT!!! >.< color="#000099">SING! hahas. (:

IG camp was cancelled due to H1N1 flu. although is already quite safe camp was still not allowed to be held. so.. too bad!! XP. in a month or two time, JESSICA mama will be back!! sooo looking forward to it. but as JOOJOO said, once we looked forward to her coming back, the next would be sending her off again. sad but true.. ): so, we're so gonna cherish that one week! (:

currently waiting for UT.first paper on wednesday if im not wrong. *cross fingers*! hahas.

and, here's the pic of WENSHAN's drawing as promised!

donkey-->

dog-->

LOLS!! 32 more days and, i missed boyboy!! (:

ps, HOTDOG i envy you in nursing.. ): i wanna go too! like so fun!

12.5.09; Tuesday, May 12, 2009

130509--Wednesday

i LOVE watching CSI:lady Heather special! Finished watching the second episode of Lady Heather;CSI. its soooooo good! cant wait for the next few episodes. (: read the synposis and it seems very interesting! (:

Next update, i joined twitter but sadly, i haven gotten a "twitterberry" yet. hahas! i will get one soon then i can twit everytime,everywhere with my twitterberry!(:

Next next, there's new ZASHLEY photoshoot being release! OMG. arent they just adorable? heehee.. Heres one of my fav pic from the photoshoot.

HAHAS. following that, updates on work and usual stuff, i LOVE work today. just felt that time pass fast and is quite fun also! no picky or irritating/unreasonable peepos today. so.. its good basically. (:

ps, before i finished, i will put up WENSHAN's drawings tmr! i promise! :D (hint: theres a donkey and a dog) >.<

*compliments to google and charismatic exclusive for picture one and two. * thanks! (:*

7.5.09; Thursday, May 07, 2009

070509-THURSDAY

"Time goes by a lot slower when you miss the one you love"

Everyday,everytime, you are still in my mind. Why cant i just forget the memories we had, although they were short? I can no longer free myself from the chains i set myself to be in..I cant believe im still searching for people who have the same traits/personality/character as you. i still love the way you talked to me. showing me that you really care. The way you express yourself. The silly look in your eyes. Your boyish smile never fails to make me hypnotize. The things you do to cheer me up never fails to make me laugh. The caring sound of your voice when i was down because of *him* ,The way you "scolded" *him* to make me forget *him*. The way you played the piano and the look you had when you fumbled. The secret tuition meetings we had.The look in your eyes when i ignored you..

I really really missed you. and, i am aware that i love you more then i love him . but, can you say the same for me? Why cant i just forget you? Is not easy at all and i dont know why..

6.5.09; Wednesday, May 06, 2009

070509-THURSDAY

In class now. going to leave at lunch . Feeling damn sick. *PS, i iwill only leave class after i finished doing my part of research* . working on friday LT, counter 13!! :D.

Nothing much to talk about. Just thought that of blogging first if not i will be too lazy to blog at home and since theres nothing to do here. (:

team mates and FRIENDS. (:

ps, in chatting with SHUTING and whats going through my mind? the days we were working together at NTUC. (: I missed the fun and the JOKES by SHUTING ! (:

060409-WEDNESDAY

IDID NOT attend lesson today. Woke up with my same case of flu,sore throat and headache and an additional fever today. Luckily the fever went down and i resume my normal temp of 37 degree. (:

Worked LT and i think cause i not feeling well i actually showed my TRUE CRAZY SELF today at work. hahas. i meant the way i express myself when i saw my idol. ZACHARY EFRON was on cover today with *you-know-who*LOLS. Glad that the article and interview was him only though :D.

Met a new friend today, okayy, i met him long time ago. just i get to know his m=name today and its, BENJAMIN, (: hellos. (i always talked with him when working night shift and i only know his name today?!*&!@*(#) .

Im still officially sick and tired. i HAVE NO IDEA why. ): and,. im LOVING pink's song!!!!

*BORING!!!* (:

ps, i was hit by OHWANXIN today cause i disturbed her de whole night! MWAHAHA. too high. and, i knocked myself against the computer table,scratchedd myself with the kiwi carton and knocked my finger against the divider at work. ):

some pics from my HK ttrip. :P

--> bus to take.

-->Aunt's house is in one of this unit!

-->ZOMG! the door i always see in shows! (:

4.5.09; Monday, May 04, 2009

040509-MONDAY

Finally im back! basically, im studying mon to fri and working weekends. so all i do during my free time is SLEEP ! hahas. i seriously need some sleep. plus,im sick nowadays and instead of getting better, im getting worse! WTF. %#%@&#% hahas.

Din get to see HOTDOG and JOOJOO since school reopen. however,saw XUEJIA today. lols. didnt recognize her cause she changed already as in her specs la. when she removed it, is still her! (ps, i wanted to paste her pic but later she angry..)

School's getting stressful due to the complicated problem statements. However, i can always count on my teams! The swine flu is really scaring people nowadays, whenever i start coughing and sniffing, my MAMEE kept asking me the typical question such as whether my friends have been back from another country? lols. but, as far as i know, people are still buying pork.so is not sooooooo extreme yet? laughs.

Been doing funny things at work lately and getting laughed at. however, work is also draggy and quite upsetting this week. well, i shant elaborate. (:
till then, see you guys in my next post! and, dont so ANGRY le la. ms OH. lols. (: