It hurts when the only person you want to hold onto forever is with someone else. All you can do is continue loving them, watch them from a distance then walk away.

Because he had every intention of loving her forever.even when she is not his.

came across these two statements while reading a online novel.
it seems true.. too true in fact.

if everything is the same, why does it seem different?
honestly, im tired. i think, im gonna break all the rules and stop the game.
stop from playing.
maybe leaving it right where it is might be best. :)

if i didnt catch myself in time, i dont know what would have happened.
*can i even survive tomorrow? ugh!!*

301009-FRIDAY.

281009-WEDNESDAY.


HAHAHAHAHAS this is drawn by WANXIN OH! and in this beeee-u-tii-full drawing, is our one and only, DOLLY aunty la! aka, LEECHENG aunty. lols =D











okays. today had work at 5pm and was fun! i kept laughing and we keep joking and playing with one another! MAMEE came at 9plus pm and was with CHERYL. she HIT me when i *BULLY* CHRISTINE aunty.. WTH!? hahas. eheheh, i say it in reality to them and i shall and will say it here as well.! i DO NOT bully PEOPLE! i just make their life fun-ner and livelier! and, i do the same to my FRIENDS and FAMILY . =D
ZHIANN came and gave me a surprise visit today and i bought cheese tofu. AGAIN?! *as ANN says. lols*
AILEH aunty gave me the niceeeee chocolate today and a bottle of orange juice. yummy! and i drank chocolate milkshake when i went home with LEECHENG aunty.
CHERYL took a funny picture of me with DEVIL HORN while i was at work and WANXIN say i should wear it on the coming SATURDAY since its halloween and i should join in the atmosphere. lols. maybe i willl if CC allows me! i will be a DARN CUTE devil and i will DEFINITELY play my part as one. HAHAHAHAHS. =D
lovelove!

271009-TUESDAY.
nothing much today. borrring.. zzzz.
worked LT and at counter 13. with KIM FOONG aunty and LAYYEE xiaojie and a new aunty.
went home with LEECHENG aunty and ohya. i ATE A DAMN NICE BREAD! is luncheon meat de leys!!!! sooooo nice! OHGOD. i like so sua ku... -.- but is niceeee.. thanks to AILEH aunty for giving it to me! ;D

going to bed.. toodles.

231009-FRIDAY.

eeww. i had my period today. lols and i openly say this why? cause it came after 4 mths. and this let me know that 4 mths has passed. lol. and i apologise for speaking bout my period here cause it comes only once every 3 or 4 month so i am excited okay?!?! LOL.

carrying on, worked M3 today and we used the new machine! hahas so nice to press even though i had forgotten at first how to operate the machine. work was happy as i kee[p disturbing MONICA aunty. lols.thanks to SANDY da jie for the sweets and SHUTING for the drink. i finally see her after a loong break away. ;D

Went home with ZHIANN and we had a looong talk, okay, not very long but still long. =D since school started, we see each other like once a week or twice a week so of course must talk tiu we SHUANG la.~ hahas.

been in love with 2 songs recently. BROKEN STRINGS and COLD AS YOU. James Morisson and Taylor Swift respectively.
*Let me hold you for the last time. is the last chance to feel again.*

191009-MONDAY.

i think i have been neglecting my dear blog lately. lets just say im overwhelm with , not HAPPINESS mind you! as i was saying, im overwhelm with TIREDNESS. yayaya. is probably nothing new to peeps out there who knew the flesh and blood me but still, i gotta say this even though im blogging. ;D



Eh, lets just say, things haven been going quite well for WANXIN,JINGWEN and I lately and it just suck so i think i shall not mention them in details here. however, recent events have place me in much thinking.. and i meant MUCH..



on to my life, i think im doing nothing with the love of my life. its time to slip by him and move on. who knows? things might not be going smoothly now but i might be married in like, 3 yrs time! *GASPS* horrifying thought eh? but i somehow started to like the idea of marriage and i cant wait for it to happen like now.. tsktsktsk. WHERE HAS THE REAL ELAINE FOO SHI HUI GONE TO?! i know i randomly told my OB's that i would not get married but now i effing love the idea.. think i watched too much romance movie and shows. lols. wutever.

i bought ramune *ラムネ* flavored kit kats. and also doriyaki which are bite size and i absolutely adore them although they cause a HOLE in my pocket. ^^



lighter note, this was what YAMHUA aunty's cute cute husband cooked for her. so sweet! even though its just a simple fare, its definitely one of the sweetest gesture a guy could do for his girl.
perhaps, the aunties in NTUC also starts to make me feel that having a husband is great. ;D










*it rained and rained and rained when it dawned upone me that i was never there..*

161009-FRIDAY..
went for a talk. thought it was going to be sleepy but certain things made me change my mind.
in fact it not only changed my mind of not sleeping but also concerning my future.so, i truly will change! hahas. cant say what this is about though. no worries. is a goooood thing! ;D

Worked at event hall at 6pm and its tiring!!! OMG. u have to like key in alll the codes and prices manually. i think i will DIE tomorrow.. hahas. but, thanks to MS TAN's help today and LAY LIAN aunty i managed to clear the queue.

Went for MAC'S with LAOMA and we had fun. so gonna miss her since i wont be seeing her for the next 3 days. she will be going for a short *enjoyment of life* and i wont be working on monday. so there! had fun! ;D

Walked home and i think i enjoy it so much. it clears my head and help me think and breathe better as well. so i strongly recommend it. =D

working FULL tomorrow, better get some sleep. LOVE YOU GUYS and sorry. no pictures today. >.<
*i make it a point to say I LOVE YOU guys each day so that one day. if i left suddenly, at least you guys know! *

151009-THURSDAY.
Photo of the day!
Had BREAK with ELYSSA and i think i forgotten to mention previously but she changed! woots. must be because of SYED..lols. love her lots! heres a SNEAK PEEK!
webcamm-ed with SISTER and how can she?!?!?! BREAK MY HEART!! hahas, i still LOVE YOU LA.

141009-WEDNESDAY.
I HAD A WONDERFUL DAY. I HAD SO MUCH FUN AND LAUGHTER AND JOY. =D
yet i can still feel a part of me numb and dead.
is it really my fault?

*will post pictures of today another day perhaps.*

131009-TUESDAY.

121009-MONDAY

*i LOVE you guys!

shall tell you guys bout my LAO MA more in the next post. ;D

learning.

learning to fall.
this is what everyone learn at one stage. one will do.
im learning to fall, over and over.
this is what I did . and i swore to never FALL again.
learning to let go.
this is what everyone is told to do at a point of time.
im learning to let go, once and again.
this is what i did. and i swore to never HOLD ON again.

learning to understand.
this is what everyone is told to know.
im learning to understand,things i never knew and never will.
this is what i did. and i swore never to BE IN DOUBT again.
learning to love.
this is what everyone seems to think of it, SIMPLE and EASY.
im learning to love.things i never will get.
this is what i did.and i SWORE never to LOVE again.

learning has never been easy. it never was.
learning is defined as acquiring new knowledge, behaviors, skills, values, preferences or understanding.
learning is also defined through simpler terms that we understand.
by experiencing,going through,memories of past and present.

we all learn and we swore to never repeat the mistake. afterall, people learn from their mistake dont they?
learning from your mistake.
does it mean to learn to never repeat them?
cause if we really learn from our mistakes,
why is it that there is always the same mistake.
repeating repeating repeating repeating repeating.
repeating to the point that we will sub conciously look for the damage done after the mistake.
after EVERY single mistake. the same old mistake. the same old damage.

LEARNING ..
through learning, i learnt alot of things.
i can say safely that i had learned.
i can say i learned to not do this and do that.
but i can never learn to never repeat your mistake.
never learn.never will.

isnt learning fabulous?

111009-SUNDAY.

E.X.H.A.U.S.T.E.D

im finally getting my sleep today after work. okays, backtrack a little,
COUNTER5 for moi, COUNTER4 for JINGWEN,COUNTER6 for LAYLIAN aunty,COUNTER7 for 老妈*leechengAUNTY* and COUNTER12 for WANXIN.

cant feel the stress like WANXIN did if she work next to LAYLIAN aunty.andandand, im BOREEEEEED today that i actually fell asleep when working *not literally la!* cause JINGWEN refuses to talk to me when we're at opposite counter.make me keep hurting myself cause i fall asleep MENTALLY. and LAYLIAN aunty dont talk so much when working and LEECHENG aunty sooo far away. ahas. but i still managed to *PLAY* with her. lols .

SANDY didnt came to work today and so din see her. ( wut am i toking bout?! HAHAAS)
had fun today cause lunch was with JINGWEN,LEECHENGaunty and WANXIN. so much funny conversations and ideas. ;D

ZHIANN was and have been sick for 2 days. so, take cares little bro!.
*KBOX!!!!! *

101009-SATURDAY

i FINALLY completed my FULL shift today and im like, EXHAUSTED. i cant believe it!! i had fun today cause there LEECHENG laoma,WANXIN,MONICA aunty and LEEHONG aunty near me and i had fun.

i had 37 pcs of credit card slips and it feels AWESOME! hahas. eh, tomorrow BA. so i guess im going to bed. toodles. ;D

THANKS BENJAMIN ! for cycling me home almost every night. ;D thanks! awesome brother! hahas.

091009-FRIDAY

081009-THURSDAY.

THIS WOULD DEFINITELY BE ME. right now, this MINUTE! ARGH... i cant cant cant cant cant stand this stupid sensation in my gums. in my MOUTH! sniffsnif. lets start of from the beginning of the day shall we?

took my meds and gargle before going to bed last night. effectively, the first try on the meds worked perfectly well. in fact, it seems to reduce the pain and i was able to eat properly. then, it started to grow to be NOT SO EFFECTIVE. is like it doesnt make a difference. in fact, it hurts more now. i reaaaly want to eat chocolate btw! so i rebelliously dont heed the warning and ate chocolates and LAKSA. now, i regret it. i really do. :(

Did not attend school today again as it hurts too much even when i did not attempt to *go near it*.cant speak properly and thus i decided to keep my mouth shut till i think it gets better. i seriously dont like to stutter in my speech. it makes me feel weird .(no offence). MAMEE decides that i should let the gums bleed and let it get well on its own. but it hurts how do i even put my tongue on it?! hahas.. I SHALL STOP TAKING THE MEDS! and LET MY MOUTH ROT. >.<

shall be attending class tomorrow.but i think i shall not speak. &*%$$&*(

I LOVE AND I NEED TO TALK.! and eat and laugh and shout. *&(*%^%$%(**(*(

**same group as CELEST once again! WOOTS.

**http://www.rbreb13.com/Pictures/Pictures_1/Pictures_2/Pictures_3/2005-08-06_040536_018_fry-argh.gif ** pic credit. thanks!

071009-WEDNESDAY



i LOVE my mouth!! im having swollen gums and i found out that it might be due to my own stupidness. lols. i was having lunch with LEECHENG aunty, WANXIN and ANN when i was told that my gums had an infection cause i stuff a tissue into my mouth when it bled. cause i want to show my sister it reaaaaly is bleeding! how was i to know it will cause infection and turn into this HORRENDOUS PAIN.. is so painful!!! :( i cant eat properly, cant sleep on my favorite side and cant drink or have chocolate in peace. cause people will nag and it HURTS when i chew in food or drink water. sniffsniff.. I MISS MY MOUTH! andandand, i CANT speak properly and this irritates me! UGH.



went to the doctor's with ANN on tues and it was a fast trip cause the doctor was fast and she poke my swollen cheeks and i almost cried. cause is painnnnnn.hahas. was given painkillers,anitibiotics and a mouth gargle which i almost swallowed when i gargle it for the first time. theres this burning sensation when the gargle rinsed the infected part.



had work today and was quite fun. with MEIMEI and WANXIN next to me, it was great but there was a throng of people today so ya. pretty busy up till 9pm. bought LA BI XIAOXIN and went to 163 for supper with BENJAMIN,WANXIN and ANN. we had so much food and had a fun conversation. lols. btw, i ate laksa and dim sum but my gums keep acting up and it hurts so much that i cant enjoy in peace. .



SCHOOL has reopened and it was great. WENSHAN aka CELEST and i were in the same group for two modules and im thinking whether we would be in the same group for the rest but. is fun having to be in the same class with her cause she was one of my close friend in E35Q. hahas. AH SHAN! LOLS.



im thinking, maybe i should end the route im taking now and steer it back to the previous one.

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ps. LEECHENG aunty send me a funny message on FB. lols she reaaaaaaaaaly acts like a 2nd mum to me, lols. ;D

021009-FRIDAY

爱不是他给的不多。 是不知道我要什么。

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.music, sports, watching shows and movies. singing.
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.UNPREDICTABLE
.HILARIOUS
.LOVES my family,friends,sister


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